A couple hours before I went off the grid and headed to the 10 day silent meditation course, I spoke to my mom and to my girlfriend, who knew about my anxieties / doubts. They each proactively, independently told me the following.
Mom: “If it’s not working out, it’s okay to come back early.”
Gf: “Be brave. Don’t come home early.”
Both are important thematic messages to hear in life from people close to you–strive forward and take risk, but we’ll support you if you fall.
It seems just too right that I encountered this zen balance in advice right before leaving for a meditation course…