18 years ago today I popped out of my Mom, aspirated meconium, went on 100% oxygen, and had a 50/50 chance of living. Oh the suspense….Well, I lived! I recently asked many friends over age 18 to tell me what they did that they most regret or what they *didn’t* do that they most regret. I gave them gold stars if they could answer in haiku. It was a lot of fun reading. Thanks to Ian Ybarra for the idea.
A bunch of people responded saying "No regrets!" (One person added to her response: "People who say they have no regrets live an unexamined and superficial life.") A big trend was traveling overseas, something I plan to do this summer.
Here are some samples. Feel free to add your own to the comments and thanks again to those who responded.
What I most regret–
Not studying overseas.
That world is gone now.
Bud Ovrom, Deputy Mayor for Economic Development to Mayor Villaraigosa, City of L.A.
I turned 18 in june, 1963…
Three months later, on November 22, 1963, my new exhilirating world was turned totally upside down. I was 18 and the best year of my life had just turned into the worst day of my life. If I have any regret from that day it is that I did not immediately start driving to washington for the funeral. Instead, my closest friends and I stayed glued to the tv in the student lounge (back in those days no one had a tv in their room and the communal grieving was probably good).
I was not then, and am not now, a religious person, but I remember knelling beside my bed that night and promising that I would use my life to try to make a difference…For the remainder of those college years we were all very active in the civil rights and anti war movements. After graduation I joined the peace corps and then returned to pursue a career in local government.
The defining moment of my life was when I was 18.
I hope you will also find that moment, but hopefully not at such a young
age and not by such a generationally tragic event. …I still get up every morning excited to go to work, because I still believe I am keeping that promise, doing something I believe in and feel that I am making a difference.
Ajay Juneja, entrepreneur
When I was eighteen
I helped others way too much
Ignoring the self
Brad Feld, Managing Director, Mobius Venture Capital
Always working hard
Not enough travel world wide
Too few girls in bed
Steve Silberman, Contributing Editor, Wired Magazine
18, thought I was
different than others, but I’m
one passing too, see
never kissed those lips
nor put my head on his chest —
love still new then, sharp
Fred Wilson, Union Square Ventures
I don’t regret anything about that year of my life. I left home, never to return for more than a visit, I went to MIT, the greatest school in the world, I spent the winter skiing in the Alps and learned to ski moguls, and spent the summer in Boston and had the time of my life.
Regret that I did… Went to local junior college and worked to save money for architecture school, rather than investigating other ways to get money for school. I lost substantial momentum that took many years to make up.
Regret that I didn’t… Invest the time to learn to dance better.
Terry Duryea, former CFO Network Associates, serial entrepreneur
I was a college freshman at UC and because I rowed crew, I did not drink nor had I ever really drank. But at my fraternity Christmas party (with the crew season over), I got so drunk I did a lot of stupid things (all in fun, nothing serious), ultimately leading to being ill. The next day I felt horrible and was embarrassed by my actions. I wasted my precious Sunday with the hangover and took a lot of ribbing from my fraternity brothers.
I regret losing self control and the waste of a Sunday BUT I am glad I did it, because it was a valuable lesson with little cost. I’ve never been drunk like that since…and have enjoyed just as many parties without wasting the next day.
Heidi Roizen, Managing Director, Mobius Venture Capital
I can’t really say that I thoroughly regret anything I did at 18 –because even the stuff that seemed really horrible back then (like the night I went out with the Harlem Globetrotters and got myself stuck alone with no wallet at 2am in downtown San Francisco) ended up being learning experiences — and in the case of that particular episode and a few like it — rather funny stories to tell my kids.
What I most regret I didn’t do at 18, is take advantage of ALL the opportunites a place like Stanford afforded an undergrad. I was so busy working to pay my way through school, I didn’t get to do much extracurricular stuff. In particular, I never took advantage of the study overseas programs, which were defining experiences for my friends. So my advice to you Ben is, realize that you have opportunities at 18 that you won’t have when you are older, recognize when one presents itself, and if you can, do it!
Julie Down, GVA Whitney Cressman
My biggest regret was that when I had an opportunity to study abroad during my freshman year in college that I take advantage of it. I didn’t even talk to my mom about it. I was concerned with some family stuff that was going on, the outcome of which wouldn’t have changed whether I was in the country or not. I should have at least asked! It would have been good for me to go but also to express what I wanted.
Deborah Streeter, Bruce F. Failing, Sr. Professor of Personal Enterprise and Small Business Management, Cornell University
When I was 18, I hosted a student from Brazil for a year. It changed my life quite a bit. I fell in love with Brazilian music, went to Brazil in my junior year of college and majored in Portuguese. Although I now teach entrepreneurship, the Brazilian connection continues to enrich my life by connecting me to wonderful people and opening up unusual opportunities.
Dick Costolo, CEO, FeedBurner
The thing I did *not* do that I most regret was not spending a year somewhere outside the US before going to college. I generally believe that spending a year abroad, anywhere abroad, offers you a much greater perspective on the world when you enter college.
I didn’t do anything that i regr et….i wish i’d done more of everything
that i did do! 🙂
Dave Jilk, eCortex and Entrepreneur
On the happy side, very easy – I decided to apply to, and after being accepted, to attend MIT.
On the regrets side, I can do a haiku:
regrets at eighteen?
not the right time to decide
anything that big
Trevor Traina, serial entrepreneur and investor
Eighteen meant some drinks
Being with friends for hijinx
Not mature methinks.
Renee Blodgett, PR maven and blogger
Most happy about would have to be "doing a scholarship program abroad – in other words, getting ‘out of this country’ to gain a different perspective on the states and the world around us."
Les Vadasz, former CEO Intel Capital, director emeritus/executive VP Intel Corporatoin
I was almost 18 when I graduated from High School. I remember that a bunch of us had a great time after graduation ceremony, and we all ended up in our small apartment at late night. Including one of the 2 girls in my class. And we just sit there in the dark, doing nothing but talking… and I know she liked me…
You will remember more what you didn’t do than what you did.
David Cowan, Bessemer Venture Partners
For the first time I fell in love, which answers BOTH your questions.
Mark Pincus, founder Tribe, serial entrepreneur
I broke free of my dad’s influence!
Tyler Willis, Project New Orleans
When I was 18 I walked away from someone who loved me with all her heart to travel the world and discover what was important. What was important was what I already had. It doesn’t belittle what I learned in my travels, but it was the most foolish thing I’ve ever done.
Warren Katz, CEO Mak Technologies
I regret not living in a foreign country for at least 6 months or a year while in college.
Vida Tolman, Chief Deputy City Clerk, City of Arcadia, CA
I was 16 when applying to university and entered when I was 17. I most regret choosing a university that kept me closer to my high school friends (with whom I had nothing in common intellectually) rather than choosing a university that would have stimulated and challenged my brain. I could have easily been admitted to any school of my choice. I just "dumbed" myself down to keep friendships. What I realize now is that the friendships I would/could have made at a more challenging university may have been a better fit for me and all it would have taken to get there was a little leap of faith. Case in point: I pretty much left those high school friends in the dust after a few years of school anyway.
Here’s your birthday haiku, written in the abreviated English style, sans "season word":
keeps brain running;
must gas up!
Bo Brustkern, SVP Corporate Development, Subfocal Solutions
wisdom like autumn
paucity, voyage; teacher
is the world at large
Olivier Marchand, Client Services Associate, Comcate, Inc.
I turned 18 in 1993. I wish I had invented Google, or at least Yahoo.
Richard Kassissieh, educational technologist
Always stop at four-way intersections.
Spend a year abroad during college.
Ryan Martens, President, Rally Development
Create a personal discipline for taking care of myself (mental, physical, emotional) – too easy to sacrifice myself for various other pressures (work, friends, school, fun)
Ramit Sethi, I Will Teach You to Be Rich
I wish I had started keeping a journal (whether public or not) to remember what I was thinking. Imagine being able to look back in 50 years and see what you thought when major events happened–and even cooler, just on a day-to-day basis. It’s never too late!
Dorrian Porter, CEO Mozes
I never knew how to listen very well or hold back negative criticism without taking the time to make it constructive or just letting things go altogether. Both are something I still work on every day 15 years later. In haiku, that might be:
He’s dumb. Who is that?
As my beard grew, I would shave.
I saw who it was.
Jon Swartz, USA Today Technology Reporter
I regret not traveling to L.A. with a high school friend to watch Pink Floyd perform The Wall in concert. Little did we know it would be only one in a handful of concerts before the band broke up for good. To add salt to the wounds, Rolling Stone magazine and others consider it one of the most memorable concerts ever.
Kevin Pasquinelli, CRM consultant, JD candidate, former Comcate consultant
Never say never!"
– When I was 18, and entering college, I said that I would dedicate my life
to science and never become an engineer. I graduated with a BSEE.
– As I became immersed in electrical engineering I said that I would never
concentrate in software. I went on to obtain a MSCS.
– Upon graduation, I said I would work only on applications and never on
compilers and software development tools (aka software that generated more
software was a "ridiculous use of my time"). Soon thereafter, I became
product manager for compilers and software development tools at Hewlett
– During this entire time, my family encouraged me to become an attorney and
I responded; "What a dull and boring job." I am due to receive my J.D. in
Life is an adventure. Live it. Never count any vocational path out.
Jamis MacNiven, owner of Buck’s of Woodside
This is easy. I most regret not being more forward with women. Lacking perspective I didn’t know that women were interested in me or even in men. I had no father figure around to clue me in but let it be heard, "Young women are interested"
Dale Edmondson, O’Melveny & Myers, LLP
Those with boring pasts
Rarely take issue with things
That they in fact did
My regrets involve not doing things — taking social pressures too seriously (and in particular, declining to ask out certain girls out of rejection-phobia). I don’t think I really appreciated how little any of those pressures would matter in the long term. If I had relaxed a bit more, taken things less seriously, and taken some risks, the years around that time probably would have been a lot more fun.
Auren Hoffman, Stonebrick group, Silicon Valley 100
happy 18th birthday Ben! now you can vote, legally sign contracts,
join the military, drink in a couple of states, and officially take
over the world.
Charles Hudson, Manager, Business Development at Google Inc.
The thing that I most regret not doing is exploring the world outside of my own backyard. It wasn’t until my mid 20s that I really started to travel and see the rest of the world and meet people who were different. I would encourage all 18 year olds to become world travelers at an early age — it really broadens one’s horizons.
Will Pate, entrepreneur:
– Made a list of the top 25 people in something I wanted to be great
at and reached out to form relationships with them.
– Been more like Ben Casnocha
– Believed in myself more
– Been more organized
– Do more favors for people I meet
– Have a plan
My biggest regret is not enjoying the life of a student. I was too focused on building my first business and not spending enough time realizing that being a high school student only happens once. I don’t regret building the business (as it paid for my college, housing and made me financially independent) but I do regret looking back at many of the memories I missed. Thankfully, college allowed me to re-deem yourself, and even though I didn’t want to go to college (and straight to business), as I reflect upon
everything (I graduate this semester) I just wish I could do it all over again. I tell my younger cousin who is a freshman "you are the luckiest person in the world". When one of my professors told us "I’d cut off my right arm to be in your seats" I couldn’t believe him, but now I do. Make sure you enjoy it all and remember business will always be there… but college and high school won’t be.
Josh Kaufman, marketing at Proctor & Gamble
Regret Doing When I Was 18:
Taking so many classes during my freshman year of college instead of working on my own projects and meeting more people. (This goes for the remainder of college as well.)
Regret Not Doing When I Was 18:
Having a steady relationship / not dating more people during high school and the early years of college. Relationships aren’t things to trifle with, but having a girlfriend of 3 years when you’re 18 is going a little overboard, when I look back.
Dave Richmond, President, Comcate, Inc.
I wish I had gone abroad during college and done a semester in D.C. I also wish I would have done more things in college that better prepared me for my career like networking, participating in groups on campus, etc.
Tim Hurley, Partner, Porter Novelli/Boston
I lost my dad to cancer when I was 20. And my biggest regret when I was about 18 was not telling him that I loved him.