College Commiserations

It’s become a tradition at my high school for the seniors to post all their college rejection letters online or physically on a wall in school. To see all the letters it is at once amusing, sad, and exciting. I know next year I will be partaking in the same process. (One of my very first posts on this blog was titled Opt Out of College Admissions Mania.)

So far, a bunch of my senior friends have heard about their early decision applications. For any of you readers who weren’t in college recently or don’t have a kid who is going through the process, it is more competitive that you could ever possibly imagine. One friend of mine had 1600 SATs and a 4.0 GPA (at my school a 4.0 is amazing) and just got deferred early from Harvard. EVERY applicant is packaged in way to make him or her look perfect.

Starting in January I will be starting to meet with our college counselor and doing some thinking. At this point, my mind is wind open. I expect to visit colleges starting in the spring or summer. I DO know that given where my grades and board scores are, and given my dislike for the traditional approach toward education, the traditional “top” schools are probably not in my future. My #1 goal is to find a college that would be a good fit for me and that I could learn a lot while pursuing my other interests.

At the moment I’m still high on the idea of taking a year off after high school to either work at my own company, work at another company or entrepreneurial-like organization, and travel.

As I go through this process, I will blog my thoughts and experiences along the way. I will also be looking for specific feedback or suggestions or any “insider” tips from alumni.

I Survived – A Winter Break of Books

I just got through the toughest time of the year for me – basketball tournaments, work, and final exams for the semester. Sorry to say I did get sick and my eyebrow started twitching ever so slightly which is the sign for me that I’m stressed and too busy. But now it’s over and I can look forward to a few weeks of break over the holidays.

What am I most looking forward to? My reading. I have 20 days off from school starting tomorrow and my goal is to get through 15 books. I have a few books lined up and am sure to get several more for Christmas. Some of them I know are going to be really interesting so I will blog as I go.

Keeping the Faith in My Doubt

I continue to try to hone my daily information intake. Instead of plowing through three daily papers like I did over the summer, I now only read the NYTimes, local and sports sections of the SF Chronicle, and have given up the Wall Street Journal. Despite my belief that bundled services are headed downhill, the best bundled service in the world remains the Sunday New York Times. Page by page, I get more value out of the Sunday New York Times then most every other information outlet I consume.

Today, there’s an op/ed Keeping the Faith in My Doubt that is packed with a lot of punch and it spoke to me. The writer talks about "Universists" asking the tough question, "Who will fight for the faithless?" Excerpts:

I have no plans to sign up with the Universists or any other areligious group….An organization for freethinkers – one of the Universists’ self-definitions – strikes me as oxymoronic, like an anarchist government. Isn’t the point of being a freethinker eschewing categories like Satanist, Scientologist or Universist?

I’m also disturbed that these areligious groups have exhibited the same sectarian squabbling that they deplore in religious believers. When Michael Shermer, publisher of Skeptic magazine and director of the Skeptics Society, was invited to speak at an atheism convention in Florida last year, some organizers objected because he is agnostic – a mere doubter of God’s existence rather than a denier.

My main objection to all these anti-religion, pro-science groups is that they aren’t addressing our basic problem, which is ideological self-righteousness of any kind. Obviously, not all faithful folk are intolerant bullies seeking to impose their views on others. Moreover, rejection of religion and adherence to a supposedly scientific worldview do not necessarily represent our route to salvation. We should never forget that two of the most vicious regimes in history, Nazi Germany and the Soviet Union under Stalin, were inspired by pseudoscientific ideologies, eugenics and Marxism.

Opposing self-righteousness is easier said than done. How do you denounce dogmatism in others without succumbing to it yourself? No one embodied this pitfall more than the philosopher Karl Popper, who railed against certainty in science, philosophy, religion and politics and yet was notoriously dogmatic. I once asked Popper, who called his stance critical rationalism, about charges that he would not brook criticism of his ideas in his classroom. He replied indignantly that he welcomed students’ criticism; only if they persisted after he pointed out their errors would he banish them from class.

Of course we all feel validated when others see the world as we do. But we should resist the need to insist or even imply that our views – or anti-views – are better than all others. In fact, we should all be more modest in how we talk about our faith or lack thereof.

For me, that isn’t difficult, because I’ve never really viewed my doubt as an asset. Quite the contrary. I often envy religious friends, because I see how their faith comforts them. Sometimes I think of my skepticism as a disorder, like being colorblind or tone-deaf. Perhaps I’m missing what one geneticist has called "the God gene," an innate predilection for faith (although I’m skeptical of that theory, too). But skepticism has its pleasures; I like the feeling of traveling lightly through life, unencumbered by beliefs.

The Long Tail

This may be really old news, but I finally got to the Oct 2004 Wired article The Long Tail.

It’s a must-read because of its clarity for anyone interested in niche-focused media and economics. It offers an excellent and simple (not simplistic, mind you) analysis of of why “the future of entertainment is in the millions of niche markets at the shallow end of the bitstream.”

The Business Off-Site, The Sports Team Dinner

The sports/business parallel world continues. Last night, my varsity basketball team had a team dinner after a 2.5 hour practice. Think of it as a business off-site: occassional in frequency, a lot of pleasure a little business, and a chief goal of team bonding.

In Patrick Lencioni’s Five Dysfunctions of a Team, a Leadership Fable, he emphasizes the value of off-sites in a big way. He makes it clear however that there is a right way to do them and a wrong way. I haven’t had experience orchestrating a business off-site because we haven’t felt it necessary to do one at my company. My experience last night was along the positive lines of Lencioni endorsement.

The team of 12 gathers at the house of someone who lives near school after a long and tiring practice. We sit around the dining room table and the joking begins immediately. For the first 30 minutes, laughter is the name of the game. I take my responsibility for comic relief very seriously. Most of the jokes bordered on the unappropriate (ok, all of the jokes) but what do you expect from a group of athletes. Then, my co-captain and I bring in the Team Shoes we all ordered that are customized with our number and name. More joking. The one person whose shoes do not arrive asserts that’s so “because he’s Jewish.” A black guy on the team asserts that he should have scouted an opponent because he won’t be recognized, and, after all, “what’s a black guy doing with a video camera anyway.” (In high school the tension around “diversity” is so intense that often the subjects of the diversity action will make jokes about themselves to try to defuse some of the political correctness.)

The pizza is delivered and as always I pay with my own cash, and then everyone else pays me back, and I usually end up a few dollars ahead. I feel it’s my right to do this because so far I have dipped well into my own wallet to pay for others’ YMCA memberships, shoes, videotapes, etc.

We start devouring the pizza, and someone tries to ask me something as we are eating. I say, “I’m not interested in talking right now because I’m focused on eating.” He fires back, “Ok Ben, then are you saying no one talks during business lunches?” I respond, “You never really eat in a business lunch, you just nibble, and have your real meal at another time.”

Everyone finishes eating and now the serious part comes in. I start by incorporating some of the helpful feedback Rauno Saarinen gave me after my Leadership post and our subsequent email exchange. “We can’t be afraid of winning.” We talked about process goals.

The evening finishes with everyone listening to our potential warm up music for our first home basketball game. It’s all rap, and I hadn’t heard of one of them. Further proof how disconnected I am from a side of pop culture. That doesn’t stop me from making one last joke, and then making a bee line for the door so I could go home and collapse in bed.