Looking back at 2004 – my accomplishments, disappointments, strengths, weaknesses

I like writing on this blog and the resulting catharsis. I ask that you indulge me in this reflective post looking back at 2004 where I will think about my accomplishments, disappointments (both generally and in relation to my ’04 resolutions), and newfound strengths and weaknesses.

Accomplishments – I am most proud of making a smooth transition of giving up most of the day-to-day reigns of Comcate and engaging at my school by forming tighter friendships, assuming captain responsibilities for the basketball team, and being an active editor at the school paper. I feel like I am striking a healthy balance that allows me the best of both worlds. I am proud about my participation in the intense political conversations in the fall.

I followed through on my two of my 2004 new year’s resolutions by “getting more out of each book I read; quality, not quantity” and “trusting new Comcate hires to do the right thing, less micromanagement.”

Disappointments – My academic performance in school has been the most disappointing part of 2004. I know my high school is very hard and that my attention is in a million places, but still, I feel like I could do a lot better. I’m disappointed that many colleges won’t give me a second look because of this fact.

I failed on my other three resolutions: “stay in B land for my grades,” “build solid relationships with females at school” (I’ve since concluded that high school ruins even the toughest girls, so I’ll wait to achieve this in college), and “meditate at least four times a week.”

Newfound Strengths – some are newfound, some not. I would characterize my strengths as a person as:

a) Communication – I believe I can communicate with anyone in most any situation including those “critical conversations.” My writing and oratory skills are at a very high level I think.

b) Relationships/Charisma – I think I can sell any reasonable idea or product to an open-minded audience which in turn means developing rewarding relationships with people (even if it means faking it).

c) Big Picture AND Details – I’ve been working on being able to switch between the minutia and big picture vision talk and I think this is a skill I am mastering. I feel like I can deftly move a conversation back and forth between these two lenses.

d) Mentoring – Mostly through my basketball experiences but in other areas as well I believe that my ability to be a good role model and mentor someone is strong.

e) Physical Fitness – I am proud that I have been able to get myself in great shape so I feel good, get plenty of sleep, and am attuned to my nutrition.

Newfound Weaknesses:

a) Numbers – I am frustrated by my inability to understand in real-time situations that involve rapid number crunching, percentages, etc. If anyone has any corporate finance 101 book recommendations let me know. I have been able to rely on others for this so far but I want to do better.

b) Giving and Receiving Feedback – Striking a balance when giving negative feedback between a hard-ass tone and positive reinforcement is tough. As is receiving critiscm, no matter how well-intentioned. This remains a challenge for me.

c) Sense of Direction – As a licensed driver I now realize that if you drop me in an unfamiliar location, I probably won’t be able to find my way. MapQuest has probably contributed to this.

d) Getting Past First Impressions/Stereotypes – I believe it’s really important to not let your impression of someone in the first two seconds of meeting them the one that sticks. Clearly a gut reaction is a good thing, but I think people take this too far. I need to work on this.

Some Good New Year's Reading

I was on a roll with my reading over Christmas, but hit a bump in the road when the power went out where we were staying near Santa Cruz and then a lot of basketball and meetings. But – I have gotten through a bunch of books, some good, some not-so-good.

First, I read Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience which opened my eyes to new ways to think about happiness and fulfillment. If you want to better explore that feeling of “being in the flow” and when time flies, I reccomend this book.

Next up was the best book I’ve read in a long time – Clinton & Me was a hilarious romp through the life of Clinton’s humor speechwriter. I laughed out loud many times at both the jokes and the process through which Clinton and Al Gore wrote their humor speeches. Highly reccomended for people who like laughing and politics.

After reading a positive review of Hackers & Painters I grabbed a copy. I read and loved Paul Graham’s essay on essays (and blogged about it here). His compilation of essays is pretty good, some more interesting than others. If you like his online stuff, you’ll probably like this book.

Steven Pinker’s The Language Instinct only slightly scratched my itch of curiosity on the wonders of language and how our mind processes language. I decided to pass on the 400 pages in btwn the intro and conclusion because the writing was boring.

Keith Yamashita’s Unstuck is a quick read that had some useful tips for trying to get “unstuck” from a tricky business situation. I’ve always been intrigued about the attention this guy has gotten vis-a-vis his work with HP. Unstuck doesn’t tell that story as much as present a workbook that you can use in a very practical manner.

My most recent read has been one of the best – How Would You Move Mount Fuju? Microsoft’s Cult of the Puzzle. I’ve heard about Microsoft’s interviews and brain teasers and this book sheds light on this increasingly popular practice. In addition to outlining some fun (but hard!) puzzles and answers, it had some great tips in interviewing candidates, being the interviewee, and also some random bits on problem solving in general.

Now, time to get to the periodical reading stacked on my bedside table. David Brooks recently published his top non-NYTimes articles from 2004 a few of which I have printed out and will read. Among the more interesting articles include Faculty Clubs and the Pews, The Global Baby Bust, World War IV, High Prices: How to Think About Prescription Drugs, and An Argument for New Liberalism. They’re sure to be thought-provoking.

Friends of Ben: Greg Prow

Network: Ben Casnocha > Mike Patterson > Greg Prow

Google: “Greg Prow”

Greg Prow was up until recently a managing director and COO at Mobius Venture Capital and was one of the first people in the business world I met 3 or 4 years ago. He is now moving on to new endeavors, but I thought of him recently after an email I got from someone very successful who told me to abandon my involvement in business and focus exclusively on school.

Back in the day, I wrote up a 10 page business plan on an idea I had for a company based on my first dot-com that resolved citizen complaints about local governments. When my close mentor Mike Patterson – who at the time was just a neighbor down the street, I’m sure he didn’t expect to be this deep into it! – took a look he offered to introduce me to a friend of his (Greg) for add’l feedback. I had no idea what to expect – after all, I had never met any adult in any sort of business setting. I think I was 12.

When I arrived at the offices of what-was-then-called Softbank, I recall my palms being sweaty and very nervous. The bubble was just bursting and from what I had read about VC firms everyone was in the dumps. To my surprise, I walked in and was instantly printed a name tag and led to the back where there were tons of drinks and food. It seemed the bubble hadn’t burst yet for this firm.

I met Greg and I was surprised again – he actually read the business plan in detail. He had detailed feedback, he went to the whiteboard and drew up numbers. He said, “Ben, I want you to go out and find three beta testers for this product. Second, I want you to find quality tech support folks who can stabilize the product and answer the phone 9-5. I’ll help you find these people. Third, this is most important: as you embark on this journey, most people are going to tell you to give up, to just be normal, to quit being a dreamer. I want you to never listen to any of them and keep pounding away at your vision. Good things come from the desire to make them happen.”

Those were his parting words, applicable to any entrepreneur, and they echo in my mind every time someone tells me to quit. Thanks Greg, for inspiring me to start on this incredible journey.

A Lot of Laughing This Christmas

I laugh a lot. In school, that’s my favorite thing to do. When my two brothers are home from college, you can’t go more than a few minutes without one of the famous Casnocha Lines coming out. One of us will take a really good line from a movie or TV show or just come up with our own witty line and then say it over and over until it spreads throughout the campuses of University High School, Middlebury College, and Amherst College. Besides myself of course, I consider them the funniest people I know.

When I first signed up for Orkut, I remember it asked what sense of humor I had for my profile. I chose: dry/sarcastic, clever/quick witted, goofy/slapstick.

For Christmas, among the five people in my family, we gave each other: the Seinfeld DVD Gift Set which includes the complete first three seasons on DVD plus a deck of cards and salt shaker w/ the Senifeld logo plus the Best of Steve Martin on SNL and the Best of Will Ferrell on SNL DVD sets. In addition to these funnies, among various other books, I got a book off my wishlist: Clinton & Me which is the story of the joke writer for Clinton at the National Press Dinner.

So – amidst any holiday stress this year, don’t forget to laugh.

Socrates Cafe and Socratic Citizenship

My first two reads this break were Socrates Cafe: A Fresh Taste of Philosophy and Socratic Citizenship. I have been really intrigued by the whole notion around an “examined life” and asking difficult questions despite, as Cornel West says, our “anti-intellectual, market-driven civilization preoccupied with comfort, convenience and contentment.”

I recommend Socrates Cafe as an entry level book for one who doesn’t know a lot about philosophy and philosophers. The author tells his story as he traveled around the country setting up Socrates Cafes in community centers, coffee shops, libraries, etc. where members of the community came and asked deep questions. It’s a quick and fun read, though the repetition of his stories at all the various stops gets a little tiring. If you went a refresher or intro to Socrates and the Socratic method, or if you are thinking about setting up a Socrates Cafe in your neighborhood or office as a way to relax and think deeply, check out this book.

Socratic Citizenship is dense and academic and I only recommend if you have some general background information on the five political thinkers he dissects – John Stuart Mill, Friedrich Nietzsche, Max Weber, Hannah Arendt, and Leo Strauss. The introduction really captivated me. He presents the tired idea that good citizenship has to do with turning away from the false gods of materialism and toward the more meaningful life of community or political engagement. He presents his skepticism of how giving time and energy for a “cause,” having a rich associational life (churches, charities, etc), and doing active service for something bigger than the self, all mean you are a good citizen. Fundamentally, the idea of this book is that you can be both skeptical and morally serious, even though this form of negativity is often dismissed because moral seriousness is often identified with a positive conviction of political causes or positive moral doctrines. After a great intro, his detailed chapters and analysis of the various thinkers completely lost me. I’ll put this book in the “Read in 5-10 years category.”

I’m still looking for a great book on morals and citizenship, so I’d love recommendations in this area.